And it’s time to bid adieu to the year and sing auld lang syne (I’d probably be in dreamland at the stroke of midnight, some how staying up for the new year bash has been lost over the years). Didn’t even have time to pause, take stock of the year passed and make new resolutions.
The wife asked me yesterday “are you looking forward to 2007?”
Didn’t take me all that long to reply “not really, what is there to look forward to?”
I know it sounds morbid but it’s true. It’s just going to be same old, same old when 1st Jan comes around. I’ve been doing some thinking, even as I went about the household chores of cleaning this, washing that, rearranging this or that. I’ll probaby not pen down most of my thoughts. It’s private.
Church was good today. The message in the sermon was expected and cliched. “Get the ghosts of your past behind you and move on”. But what if the demons refuse to leave? Is there a safe place to take refuge?
Church was good because a man came out to the front during sharing time and did a Job. You know, the “The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away, Blessed be the name of the Lord” part (Job 1:21). I was touched by his sincerity. Here was a man clearly in trouble (though he didn’t specify what kind of trouble) but he chose to go out, thanked the people who are holding him up, physically or in prayer and blessed the Lord. It was a testimony born out of true tribulations, which stood out like a sore thumb from the rest of the testimonies which centred (rightfully) on the bountiful blessings from God.
I averted his eyes during his testimony. I could see many shifted uncomfortably in their seats. At communion, I gave him a stronger than normal handshake, he looked at me, I looked at him, hoping to convey the message “hang on there brother” to him. Still, I fear I have been derelict in my duty as a fellow believer. I did not find out what is the problem and how I could help!
I did, however, pray for him.
As I did pray for my kids, my wife, and myself last night when everyone was asleep.
2007 will be here in less than 6 hours. True, there isn’t anything that I look forward to. There will be the same demons to fight, the same struggles day after day, month after month. I would win some and I would lose maybe even more than some.
But that brother’s testimony somehow has given me hope. I am glad he did a Job. It has restored my faith somewhat.
So, Happy New Year everyone! 2007 can’t be that bad right.
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